I hope everyone is doing ok and if you are not remember that is ok not to be ok. I am still fighting this bloody cold but I am feeling better I have my sense of smell back! Woohoo, actually I don’t know if that is a good or a bad thing considering I live with a boy! Still feeling pretty good though, considering there have been a few stressful things for me going on at the moment. I feel there has been a difference in my mindset recently I think I have come to terms with certain things with my life that are out of my control and will always be out of my control. The outcome of this is that I have realized that I had to for my own sanity find a better way of dealing with them rather than letting them consume my every waking thought.
Today’s post is another one focusing on the truth and I haven’t done this for a while and I thought I would write another letter to myself. This letter is not for the younger or the older me this is just a letter for myself for when things get too much. It is for when I feel like I want to deal with life anymore. I think this is a useful letter to have in your mental health toolbox as who knows you better than you.
So here you stand, broken in so many ways, you may be broken but you are so far from weak. I could tell you to just suck it up as things are not that bad but I live inside that head and that is the worse thing to say to you isn’t it. I know you wish you didn’t feel so much and that you with you cut your emotions out of you completely but then you wouldn’t be you. I wish I could tell you things get better but I don’t know that they will but I do know you are more than capable of overcoming anything thrown at you as you have been doing it for 28 years. I could go into detail about where this pain comes from but we both know where it does so what is the point in dragging that up. Just know this you have shown not only yourself but others around you, that you a strong and a force to reckon with at times. So hibernate do some self-care but and close this chapter in your ever-changing life.
Tell depression and anxiety to go fuck themselves and that the time inside your mind is running out fast!