anxiety · depression · mental health · PCOS

This Is Me

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Hey everyone!

Going to keep this short and I sweet πŸ™‚ I have been blogging for a few months now and I can say hand on heart it has changed me for the good. But there have been aspects of the increased time I have spent on social media, I have not enjoyed. The pressure of staying relevant and communicating with people as much as you can is crazy! Why are we doing this to ourselves? That’s an anxiety trigger right there, I have left work feeling guilty because I can not interact with people as much as I used to and having FOMO (fear of missing out) this needs to stop, started this to get better, not worse. Also the pressure to have the perfect pictures the right set up was starting to get to me, the follow trains, the need for validation, the people who follow then unfollow you just to get your follow wtf!!
All these factors were getting me to the point where my head was going to explode and for the last week or so my social media felt more like a chore than me doing it for fun and to raise awareness.
Before people think this is a dig at people who do these it is not, go you for being good at something that I cannot keep up with. Some people blogging and social media it is a job or working towards making it a career if you are one of those people I high-five you as your commitment and talent are inspiring. I just cannot do what you do and that is ok too.
So I am going to be more careful now with not getting obsessed with numbers and likes and the need to post for the sake of post I am just going to be me.

This is me!

No make-up no giving a fuck! This is me, frizzy hair, freckles, and eyebrows not on fleek. Bags under my eyes due to lack of sleep, hair thinning due to having PCOS. Chubby cheeks because I enjoy food, hair a mix match of colour’s as I like it. I have anxiety,Β cyclothymia and PCOS. img_0813My blog posts and twitter posts can be full of grammar and spelling mistakes. I have stretch marks and extra pounds in many places, I laugh at my own jokes, I can be a drama queen but I don’t fit in no damn box as this is me just with added extras!.
Take care all,
Vixxy Rose
xxx

19 thoughts on “This Is Me

  1. Great post. My CPN has warned me about the negative effect posting about my condition on social media can have on myself. Went a bit crazy on Twitter the last few days!!!! Sometimes we can get stuck between a rock and a hard place when we feel it’s a duty to help spread awareness and actually deal with our condition. I think it’s all about getting the balance right. I find I have a spell like I have the last few days where I go crazy tweeting about mental health then go quiet for weeks. Anyway I guess what I’m trying to say (In a very long winded way) it’s that first and foremost your own health must come first. A very enlightening post!!!! Thank you!!!

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  2. Firstly
    Vicky, you’re absolutely beautiful.
    Secondly
    I have stretch marks too. It’s sucks, but it’s a part of being human. Out “imperfections” aren’t really imperfections at all! We should accept ourselves as we are. So yay you for doing that 😊
    I can often get obsessed with numbers on social media. I know I shouldn’t, but I do. It’s such a shame. Something as insignificant shouldn’t matter to me at all. Let’a work towards not caring about it 😊
    Man, I wish I was as pretty as you πŸ˜…πŸ˜­πŸ˜„

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  3. I was worried you were gonna stop posting. 😰 Glad you’re still at it just being all idgaf about it. I feel like you’re totally right how easy it is to get sucked into all of that and forget why we started in the first place. You’re so strong and wise!

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    1. Aww thank you I really appreciate that a lot 😊 it really is so easy to forget but I am gonna try and keep myself grounded and do it for the reasons I started it in the first place 😊 You are too we haven’t followed each other for long but I love your posts a lot!

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  4. Great post!

    I too feel the same about worries for getting followers and likes. Since I’m new to this, having a good start seems important to me.

    At the same time, my main purpose is to help others with my blog. I’m not big on being popular or having a lot of attention. I just want to share what I’m experienced and what I have to say and it seems hard to get my word out there.

    I agree, blogging should be a positive experience and I hope it stays as one. I also learned from your post, so thank you!

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    1. Thank you for reading I really appreciate your kind words and support! I think it’s so important from now on to remember the reason why we post and step bs k when we feel that is changing for the negative! I am like you I am not doing it to be popular I am just doing it to be me 😊

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  5. I applaud you once more πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

    I seriously believe you are in my head with some of these posts haha. I think I had a bit of a breakdown the other day as I was trying to stay in touch with everyone through Twitter, and followers were going up so I followed back, then began losing view of my original Twitter folks posts.

    I started this as an outlet, then realised my weirdness may help someone. Numbers is nothing if I can’t be me, and I know people wouldn’t really follow the real me πŸ˜‚

    So thanks for this post, as again, it’s put my head back on the right way and now I am ready for Monday (and maybe a wee “mute” through Twitter).

    Ps. I LOVE your picture ☺ It’s you, how you are. I might start showcasing my chubby cheeks more often now haha.

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    1. lol I told you we were separated at birth lol I think it’s important for people like you and I is that we started the twitter and the blog for an outlet for ourselves not for other people yes it’s great that we can help other people as we do it but ourselves come first! But yeah your right now and then take a step back when you feel the pressure mounting a little! Your support has been amazing and I really appreciate your kind words 😊

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      1. We totally were (I’m losing years then, yessss!) lol. Yeah, we can’t help anyone else if we don’t help ourselves first. Got to look after number one. It’s easy to support when your content is so good and so easy to connect with ☺

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  6. I love this post! I noticed the people that have followed my blog just for a follow back. I’ve noticed how obsessed with numbers people are and I prefer blogs that aren’t trying to make their blog their career. That’s why I love yours πŸ’— Keep being you!

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