It’s Ok To Be You

 

635970606567048869-686878366_original.jpgHey everyone,

So things have been rather busy with my job, so I haven’t posted as much or used my social media as much as I used to. I have decided to give myself a kick up the bum and going to start planning my blogs more and being more organized. I have a planner but I mainly use when I have ideas for blogs and write them down.
These last few days has definitely had its ups and downs, I feel now I have a job that I don’t dread about going to and it’s something I have wanted to do for a long time has really helped settle my moods. Unfortunately, though my anxiety has been a lot harder to control. I feel like I am like a seesaw when one goes up the other goes down. I get so frustrated with myself, I try to open up to people about it, then I feel better, then I over think about telling them and then open up again, so around and around I go.
Ahhhh I get it now my mind is like a playground, with the seesaw moods, the vicious cycle merry-go-round, and the swing of shame, coming soon the slide of emotion. I think it is time I stop going to the playground.

This leads me to my tip of the day…….. IT’S OK NOT BEING OK!

We can be our own worse critic, we condemn ourselves over the smallest things. We just want to be better, but we can’t jump from 0 to 100 in one leap. So it is ok to go through the steps even if 12 is good and 67 is bad because each step we are learning and improving. I know I beat myself up all the time for letting people see I am not ok because I don’t want them thinking less of me. Good days and bad days are going to happen, and how do you expect people to be ok with your mental illness if you are not.
Over the weekend I had an anxiety attack before I went to a party with my friends, but I didn’t just paint on a smile and pretend everything is ok when I got there. I told them what happened so I had no pressure to act differently to what I was feeling, and after a while there I felt better. I am not going to lie the day after I had massive anxiety about opening up and being honest like that but I am still glad I did it, as it is ok not being ok.

Take care all,

Vixxy Rose

xxx

13 thoughts on “It’s Ok To Be You

  1. mymudlife says:

    Never be afraid of being open and honest with how you’re feeling 🙂 I’ve gone through the same exact things, but I realized I rather let people know I have an issue then hide it. We shouldn’t be ashamed of our anxiety and/or depression. It’s how we are and what makes us unique. It breaks the stigma of mental illness the more we are open about it. And I know how much the playground sucks :-/. Sometimes I can’t get off the merry-go-round or the see-saw.

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  2. livien1995 says:

    I’m still trying to teach myself that it’s ok not to be ok. It’s not an easy task. I feel so pressured to act as if I am. I feel like I have to act, because people will judge me and not understand me anyways. But at least I can now be open with my mom and tell her the truth. That is an improvement from how I acted a few years ago. I’m glad you can be open about your struggles. You’re strong 😊 keep it up

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  3. Hunida says:

    It IS ok to not be ok.💗 I’m glad you were able to open up to your friends and it helped make you feel better! I used to not ever want people to know when I felt bad and sometimes I still try to hide it but you’re right, how can you expect someone to be ok with it if you’re not??

    Stay strong!! 💗

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